The author

Before I introduce you to my very weird world let me tell you something about me.

My name is Stefan Palczewski. I was born in Poland in a small village called Korytnica. I am the oldest of five and was raised in a very poor family with constant financial struggles. As a young family we were living with the in-laws. We were sharing two rooms between two families, and one stove, imagine that?  From early on I developed some health issues that were the result of stress and anxiety.

Being the oldest is not fun at all. As most first-born siblings can attest to. Younger siblings were more important than me, had more attention, and I had to be the one to step aside if they wanted my toys because I was older and “should share”. That’s how I felt at that time. I was not the favorite child in my family, and I felt that strongly. Perhaps it was not intentional, but I felt rejected. I was a “trophy” child because in school I was always one of the top students in the class.

Growing up I did question people’s motives including my parents, establishment, clergy, and the whole dogma of life. This got me into a lot of trouble, but I did not care. I had my own opinion and still do. I didn’t have many friends growing up and was very selective who they were. My interests are and were different than my peers. I can see and sense things that others can’t. In general society call this, “being psychic”. I don’t support that term because has very negative vibe to it, and it is misused by many con artists. I prefer “intuitive”. Fortunately, or unfortunately, depending on how you look at it, I have had many near-death experiences.

At the age of five my life form was about to be terminated, but I survived. A small farm carriage pulled by a cow ran over my left leg. Those wheels had steel rims, so my bones were crushed. Everything unfolded in such slow motion and all I remember was thinking I didn’t want to die so my parents and siblings didn’t feel sad. That was the first time death called, it tried again a few more times – just barely missing being impaled when I fell from a tall tree, to being protected from being thrown out of a speeding train, luckily missing a bomb explosion by about one minute in Vienna, and more recently surviving a lymphoma diagnosis.

Hopefully death won’t call back anytime soon. As you can see my life is not boring at all, yet I think it is. Throughout all my years I have been interested in almost every aspect of life. I have read hundreds of books on countless subject like; the paranormal, astronomy, modern science, technology, UFOs, healing arts, alternative medicine, spiritual beliefs and many more. I finished Dominion herbal College in Canada and I am qualified herbalist. I have also diploma in other fields; natural health consultant, parapsychology and a few others in other fields.

I did attend community college in Poland. I was supposed to be electromechanic or technician, but I quit in my third year. One of the reasons of doing so was my fear of rejection, which I now know is a symptom of my depression and anxiety. To me, rejection, is very a painful experience. I don’t ever remember being hugged or comforted, and I had no one to talk to about my problems. The fear of rejection has also impacted my love life. I still remember the day that I found out that the girl I deeply loved got engaged.

My world was crushed. I’ve never told her that I am madly in love with her because of the fear she will reject me. I still do have feelings for her. I have on my bucket list, to find her and tell her in person. Am I crazy to be in love with someone that I cannot be with? Even in my dreams about her, which are frequent, I remind myself that she is married and has kids. These dreams are perhaps containing some message for me, but what?

On an astral level we are both aware of what is happening, she knows. That part is shielded from us to have life experiences according to our earthly desires. My escape from all this was alcohol. I was not a very heavy drinker, but it was plenty. After a while I gave up on being in a relationship and focused on my interests in the paranormal. But not only that, I actually also loved to do stand-up comedy and would at any county fair I could. I loved when people were happy even if I was not. That kept me sane.

Before leaving Poland, my then intimate relationship ended brutally by her cheating on me. Since my arrival in Canada I’ve had 3 serious relationships. The last one ended in divorce. We have 2 awesome kids that suffered immensely through our crappy break up. The relationship prior to my marriage and that divorce ended out of my own stupidity. I know now that woman really loved me, and I guess that was too scary for me.

I am very sorry Teresa wherever you are. Being alone for a healthy man like me is very hard. I am not going to give up though, perhaps my future still holds room for love and companionship. Finding companionship can be tough though, as I am also empath. This trait was passed to me from paternal side of the family. My father’s grandmother side to be exact. I am sure that I passed this to our children. It’s difficult to handle this ability sometimes. We pick up good and bad energies in a second. Google what empaths are so you will understand better what people like me must deal with.

The older I am, the more sensitive I am to these energies/vibes. And in my case, it presents itself in some very unhappy moods. My dream is to remove myself from my current “job”, which is a very negative environment, and focus on my passion: lectures. At my current job we are “expenses” and “numbers”, nothing more. I know that this is coming to a very abrupt and violent end, as the economy collapses, and I feel sorry for those that have no plan B in place. Before ending this chapter, I want you to know something else about me.

I have out of body experiences. I’ve had them my whole life, without knowing how it happens. I do not practice or nurture these abilities. It just happens, and sometimes at the least expected time. In the past few years of my life new gifts have shown up. Recently, I am receiving freeze-frame flashes that I analyze later. They are like electromagnetic impulses that my whole body is aware of. I mention this to you, so you can better understand where all that information in my possession is coming from.

I cannot, nor I will claim that whatever you will read on upcoming pages is coming from some fancy named being or dude you call god.

In 1997 I underwent a medical procedure called a laparotomy. During the procedure something very weird happened and as a result, I am writing this book to share with you my experience. But it’s not just that. Now I understand that I was preparing myself for this writing all my life. Everything that happened to me during my life, has had an impact on who I am now and how I see this world. I need to mention here that there is guidance present in writing this book. I don’t know what it is but it’s there and you will notice that as well. I am very thankful for this guidance and the patience I am receiving.

I do still suffer from depressive episodes now and then and writing this book keeps me sane. As soon as I publish this book, I will also translate it to Polish because Poland is always close to my heart. Whatever will follow from this point on is all me and the way I interpret what is happening. I am aware that my life is moving into a stage where I will assemble something of great value to others. Many years of loneliness and seemingly waste of time will bring to life something awesome and those that were around me long time ago and slowly disappear will try to reconnect to be around me.

Question is for what reason. Those who try to know me understand that I am great listener to other people stories. Most of them don’t even realize how much better they feel telling their troubles to me knowing on some level that they will receive good advice and healing. The last part wasn’t known to me until recently by someone very intuitive saying; “why do you think they are telling you their problems”. I had no idea. Thanks to Miria Cook, Allen Grey Wolf, Ted Silverhand and Little Monica I understand so much more and I know that my life is about to change the way they all foreseen it.